WHAT did you say?????

Today has been quite an emotional roller coaster for me. Last night Jeff called to tell me that he had something to say that "I would not like". Who in the world starts a conversation like that? Well it ended up that he was going to go play cards with his friends and then come over. Why would that bother me? I want him to be happy, he does not need to spend his every waking moment with me. Apparently he thought I would be hurt by this and be mad. Not a chance, I am not going to get all upset because I have to wait alittle bit longer to hang out with him. He was only out till 11. I thought that was funny.

So this morning when we woke up he wrapped his arms around me and this was our conversation:

Jeff: I love you
me: What?
Jeff: I love you?
me: complete silence
Jeff: I am sorry

LOL I think I was taken aback by the whole situation. I do love Jeff. I just never expected him to come out and say that at this point. I thought I heard him wrong at first but I think I may have ruined the moment when I said nothing at all the second time. I explained myself today and we both laughed at the situation. He knows I love him and have never stopped but it is weird to not have contact for an entire year and then after hanging out for a very short time throw out the words "I love you".

I think the year we had apart has made us both realize what we had. And we both know that we have a second chance to make things right.


So on my way out of the house today I checked my email and low and behold there was one there from cheer dad. I did write him back but still no response. I told him the only way for our friendship to be fixed is for him to make the effort. We shall see if he does.