I think it is just that time of year!!!!

My emotions are running out of control. I hate this time of year. I am not fond of the Christmas season at all. I think alot is just bothering me right now and the stress of Christmas is just not helping.

My friendship with Cheer Dad is pretty much null and void at this point. This makes me very sad. I like him alot but... there are things that bug me about him and I freaked out the other day. This whole "friends" thing drives me nuts. When we are together he thinks nothing of grabbing my ass, holding my hand, cuddling, kissing me goodbye and then he is just strange once we are not together. I can call him and it takes him days for him to return a call. He is suppose to be my date for the Christmas party tomorrow and I still have yet to get in touch with him. I have given up on calling him. If he wants to still go then he will call me. If not then I do not have a problem with going alone.

This weekend is going to go by quick so I have no time to stress about stupid shit like him. I am going out tonight to play poker (nope dont know how to play) I get to see my old work friend that I have not seen in a month. So that should be fun. I am going over there with one of his best friends (Monkeyboy) I guess you could call it a mini date. It is going to have to be short and sweet because I offered to work all weekend, so I have to be up and at work by 7am. So I have to be home in bed by at least 12:30. I am working till 12 and then my daughter has her final competition at 1. Then I have to be at dinner (christmas party) for 6, who knows what time I will be out till tomorrow and then back to work for 7 again on Sunday. I guess I cannot complain, I asked for the time because I need the money for christmas.

Ended up getting stiffed from the jackass father of hers. 3 weeks with no child support so that shorts me 600 for the month. yeah not a good thing right before christmas but if I can work all the OT I can then I might just be ok. Well I guess that is all the venting I have for tonight without getting really angry and upset. And to be quite honest I am sick of getting upset. So I will update everyone on the Christmas party soon.