Wow what a crazy life

It has been quite awhile, Lets see where to start.... I GOT THE JOB!!!! I have to go on friday for a TB test and a drug test. Once my results come back I will give my notice at my current job. My start date for the hospital is Nov. 7th. I am so excited. I get to go buy all new clothes. That right there excites me. I am very happy about this.

It just seems like my life is moving so fast. I am not sure where things are going with the cheering dad. We hang out all the time and if we do not see each other we are on the phone. But it still scares the hell out of me. I have found myself comparing to the past. Like for instance, when I call and he doesnt answer or never calls back, my mind starts racing like it use to with Jeff. I have brought myself to ignore these thoughts and just move forward. But it is kinda hard sometimes. His birthday is on Thursday and I am probably going to take him to dinner if he will allow it. If not, then I know we are going out on Saturday night with my friend Jimp(the one in Philly). So I am going to talk to him this weekend about things. I just dont want to get my hopes up if nothing is going to come of this. But at the same time it is so hard to back off because he is so good to me. Sometimes I think I should just let things happen but I am the type of person that needs to know what is going on. Argh, sometimes I wish my mind did not work at all. But it will be ok regaurdless of the out come, I am a strong woman and I can handle it.

Well that is the update so far. Nothing else is really going on that is worth talking about. I will keep you posted.